It has been a long time sense I have writtern on my blog that only I read. I hope that now I back home and gettign back into a normal routine again that I will be able to write regularly. So this particular post is just going to be a catch you up on what has been going in my life the past few months and what God is stirring in my heart in season of my life.
My last post I had told you that my mother had been diagnosed with a recurrence of cancer from head to toe. My mom passed away July 21. The same day my wife's grandmother passed away. We had laready been living out of a suitcase trying to go back and forth from home to see my mom in the hospital. The week my mom went into the hospital was the week before I was suppose dto lead a group of 350 to our HS camp in Florida. One of my best decisions in life was to not lead that trip. I stayed back and stayed at the hospital with my mom and family. It was the first tiem I had ever had to miss a camp and it was a very strange thing but again the best decision ever.
As i told you in a former post my Mom was a believer in Jesus Christ. So I it is beautiful picture and overwhelming comfort to know that my mom is hearing the Angels shout to one another "Holy Holy Holy is the Lord of Hosts, the whole earth is full of His glory." Jesus thank you for the grace that you freely gave to cover the soul of my mother. As great as my mother was to me this was not a gift that she earned or deserved, but only recieved through your love for her and again your choosing to give that grace. God thank you for that.
As for me; God has used this time to stir in me to be a man who seeks wisdom in his life more than just in the crisis of life. In the midst fo the spurring fromt he Lord I have started reading Proverbs this week and instantly I see my life described. In the first Chapter it talks about wisdom shouting out as to get the naive's attention but they ignore the cry of wisdom. Then when calamity comes they look for wisdom but cannot find it because they ignored it and chose not to fear the Lord.
How desperately I need wisdom to teach my Naive life. So much of my life has been lived as a fool who ignores the cries of wisdom until calamity comes to life and then in my selfish desire to succeed or have a easier path I then cryout to wisdom. My prayer is that I would be slow to speak and quick to listen! That I could live as proverbs says, "But he who listens to me shall live securely And will be at ease from the dread of evil."(Proverbs 1:33)
Father I lack wisdom in my life, but I am asking that you would teach me how to live in all situations. would I not be a naive fool who lives as though he hates knowledge (Proverbs 1:22). Teach me to fear the Lord and to love wisdom and instruction (Proverbs 1:7).
Thu, October 8, 2009
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